Yeah, back home in Kuching...

Believe it or not, 2 days after touching down in KL and I got sick as in flu and stuff. 2 weeks after I got home, I got food poisoning. OMG!! I don't wanna think what will happen in 2 months time! ~swt~

Yeah, I went straight into school after 1 day rest. It was pretty much okay, but stressful. Don't look at me like that, I know I got home only 2 weeks ago, but that time's enough to make me stress ok. Tests and quiz seems to take part every week, and teachers tend to give us piles and piles of homework. Stop looking at me like that, I DO do my homework okay... =P

Sorry, I haven't had time to meet up with you guys. Time flies! even when I'm back home... LOL... My room's still in a mess as in my cupboard's empty, my suitcase is still full.

I hope I'm well enough to go attend the theory thing tomorrow. Apparently the Malaysian road goverment wnat to kill us with 5 hours of boredom. I hope I survive it with my upset stomach. sighhhh... pray for me. heheee... thx in advance.

Ok, i gotta stop. Just drop by here in case you guys thought I got lost on the way flying to Kuching. Haha!!

sitting with the heater turned up so high...

Yeah, preparing myself for 30°, sun, and heavy rain.

I won't pretend I'm not freaking out... It turns out to be so much harder to go back than to leave. Before I came, it was always suppose to be a year thing and come back to familiar grounds again. But somehow along the way my heart opened to new stuff and I learned to be one of them too. Now, it is so hard leaving and knowing that when I come back everything will be different.

I won't deny the nights I can't sleep I spend thinking about the future. Will we still be friends or will we just leave it as it is... Will I have new friends or can I fit back even after a year away... Will I be able to fit into my new school... Will you be able to understand I need time to re-adjust?

Well, there's so many things running through my head, and I'm not sure if you'll understand. I won't hide that I've change... not only physically but also mentally. I'm no longer this naive 16-year-old. I just hope you'll accept my changes as I accept yours. I'm just so scared that we'll grow apart, 'coz we haven't talked in a while...

I try to forget about the future by acting like nothing's changing, but stuff makes it hard to forget that I'll be leaving in a week's time. People asking stuff like, 'when you're leaving' hit me always on the head forcing me to make a countdown in my head. But don't get me wrong... stuff like going shopping without this little calculator in my head counting how much Ringgit it'll cost, dragging my ass away from Chinese Restaurants, not being able to join reunions, not being able to eat what I thought I'll get so sick of makes me realise that, no matter what, home will always be home even though it seems so foreign at the moment.

Ach... home seems so far away even though it's only a matter of days...

Silvester!!!

Technically it's no longer Silvester... Silvester's new year's eve... and it's 2 hours and 23 minutes into the new year already... So guys...

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!!!

Selamat Tahun Baru!!!

Frohes Neues Jahr!!

Xin Nian Quai Le!

Okie, I'm not sure if the last one is correct or not... Forgive my Chinese, I didn't learn it in school, so if my pin yin is wrong, help me correct it by leaving me a comment k??

So the fireworks were really crazy after 12am... after an hour plus there were still people lighting up their fireworks! But it was really misty that you couldn't see anything 50 meters away. You could only hear the fireworks. But it was still beautiful 'coz basically almost every house in my street lighted at least 2! People came out of their houses at 12 and started wishing everyone else Happy New Year. It was really nice.

Well, I guess you guys will be wondering and waiting for juicy stories about my Silvester celebrations... Sorry to spoil your mood, but I'm just a boring pig... I didn't really celebrate Silvester that big.

I started the day by going to sleep at about 4.30am plus... and then waking up at 9.30am, but only got out of bed at about 12.30am. And then ate my 'breakfast' of 2 slices of bread and a glass of milk and watched some film my host sister was watching. Later on I went online and read some Malaysian dude's blog about cycling from L.A. to Malaysia. I was pretty amused tho. After that I walked Akira with my host dad along the canal which was really nice. After showering, we had raclette for dinner which was really lecker!! After dinner, we played some guessing game and then Tabu afterwards. And before we could say Happy New Year, the count down was over. We hurried and opened our seck bottles and toasted to the new year and literally ran outside to join the orchestra of fireworks lighting up the misty sky.

I bet the others are probably really drunk right now but I'm all sober blogging... haha... what a way to start the new year huh? Well, it's a part of the reason why I'm all depress lately but I won't go into the details 'coz I don't wanna blog about something bad here... But like I said... or like I didn't say, it's egal! It wasn't like I didn't enjoy it at all right?

Soooo... I hope you guys had a more memoriable New Year Countdown... and wish you guys einen Guten Rutsch ins neues Jahr!! (A good slide into the new year!)

PS: sorry I didn't have any photos, like I said, it was really misty out there!

If the snow won't come to me... I'll go to the snow!

and that was exactly what I did...


No... Actually, that was what my host dad did... He brought me to the snow... Was really nice of him tho... After all these depressing stuff going around my head. Not that he's not nice normally... I mean, he is nice all the time... well, you get what I mean, don't you?


So like... we drove about 2 to 3 hours to the highest point of Nordrhein-Westfalen, the region where I'm staying in Germany, which is Kahler Asten. I woke up at about 8am AGAIN! You know, this waking up early stuff is really driving me up the wall... 'coz I get so tired afterwards but I can't sleep. Annoying that is! So after breakfast we got dressed up all warm and all in the quest to find snow. Tell you the truth, I didn't believe that I would see snow at all since it was really warm... ok, 6° isn't really that warm, but warm for snow to snow... get what I mean? No? Egal.... And then as we got nearer and higher the temperature dropped 0.5° every 100m higher. Hah! I knew that from Form 3 Geography and today I witness the phenomena! LOL!


Anyways, we saw snow on the cars in the opposite direction, and I got excited like what. And then.... we started to see snow on the side of the road... and then on signboards, and trees... and then... It started to snow!! Ok, it was more rain than snow... but who cares... it's still snow.


So we got out of the car into the freezing cold outside... and started walking... and walking... and then we saw some snowmen.... And then my host dad asked whether I wanted to take photo with the snowman... I was like, pffff, I'm here with loads of snow...as if I wanna take photo with some snowman some other people build... I also can build one myself. Haha... Well, I tried... my host dad helped... So we rolled the snow into a ball... no wait... 3 balls... I made 2, and he made 1. He didn't have gloves with him so it was too cold for barehands. Imagine... -0.5°!
If you're wondering the photo up there... it's my snow ball... Hard ok to make it really round... don't believe?? Make yourself then... then see who laugh at who's.... =P

So yeah... after few minutes of hard cold work... my snowman was finished. Well, I won't say I did a great job, besides it IS my first snowman in my life... and it was frigging cold!! and it was cold... and did I mention it was FRIGGING COLD??

You guys still wanna see my snowman ar?? Really??? Don't laugh then...

I said, DON'T LAUGH!!

Don't laugh means don't laugh...

I told you not to laugh...

depress??

I don't know why, but the last few days were depressing... it takes so much effort just to smile, and I don't know why... It's weird tho. I mean, it's Christmas, I'm in Germany... what more can I ask?? My dream last night was really troubling... I was crying in my dream... And I don't know why!

Well, what I remembered from my dream was that, I was sitting in a corner... dark corner... hugging my legs... and crying... crying like there won't be a tomorrow... Then I woke up.

Haven't being able to sleep well for nights actually, and don't ask me what's troubling me, 'coz I have no idea.

Piss off for no particular reason... and feeling like there's no reason for smiles in the world.

Ach jaaaa... I woke up too early again today...

Merry Christmas!!! Frohe Weihnachten!!

Everywhere else is feeling christmassy... except me... o.O

It's Christmas Eve, and it's the holidays... yet I woke up at 8.30am. siaw I know! I guess that's how I got my bad mood to start the day. Anyway, I only got out of bed at around 10.30 plus. Went downstairs, and found Lars clad only in boxer shorts and socks in the kitchen eating something. A thought went through my mind, "Gibt's nicht frühstuck heute oder was? Wo ist Mama und Papa?". (Is there no breakfast today or what? Where's Mama and Papa?) I said Morgen, took the scissors and got some wrapping paper and went upstairs again, and started wrapping up presents. An hour later, Papa came to my room and told me "Frühstuck ist fertig" (breakfast's ready). Apparently they were stuck in a queue in the supermarket. There wasn't any Brotchen today, so it was only some bun with raisins in it which I didn't like, and croissants... yummy!After breakfast, went up in my room again... and I have no idea what to do... So here I am, chatting and blogging.. on Christmas Eve.

Well, to you guys over there, I hope you had a better Christmas Eve to start with. =D

MERRY CHRISTMAS, FROHE WEIHNACHTEN,

FELIZ NAVIDAD, SELAMAT HARI NATAL!

a picture I took some days ago, too bad the frost didn't last. Looks like I'm not having a white christmas after all.

It snowed!

Hahaha! I'm so frigging high because it snowed. Wakakakaa! *laughing like a mad girl*

Yeah! It actually snowed today! I can't believe it either!! Ok, ok... It isn't how you think it is. It isn't the big fluffy snowflakes kind of snow. It's more santan kelapa kind of snow. Don't believe? Fine! I've got proof!!

Told you it looks like santan!

So this morning I got a call at about 8.30am, and was ready to get really piss off at the caller 'coz hallo? It's the holidays! Turns out it was Mami telling me it snowed. I jumped out of bed, look outside, saw nothing, got dressed and went straight out into the -4°! Haha, it was really cold!!

Frost on the grass

Of course I brought my camera with me. I mean, hallo? How many times in your life will you see snow if you come from Malaysia??

my humble dorf, Hünxe.

That's Akira, my schatzi...

So yeah, now I'm so happy like what. But what I want now is more snow. I guess it's too much to ask, but a girl can dream, can't she? =P Well, they said it will not snow didn't they? and today it snowed!! Woohoo!!